Hey beautiful friends and family!

On December 13th of 2023 I got hit by a drunk driver and since then it’s affected my whole life. Yes, I look perfect on the outside, yet internally has been the greatest battle. So that is hard in itself when people think I am totally fine.

I am sending this with such a tender heart. After talking with a few really close friends and loved ones, and prayerfully considering this, I wanted to share some vulnerable things going on in my life right now and ask for your support.

As you all know me pretty well, I am usually the one who’s working really hard, has her own business, and runs a global non-profit as it’s my greatest mission to truly love and serve others and empower others to do so as well.
I rarely ask for much tangible help and when I do, it’s because I feel like I am at some sort of end of myself moment. And this is one of those moments. And I’ve been encouraged by a few close people and God to finally say something and not do this alone.

Right now as it stands, it’s a very weird in-between because it’s been 2 months and I feel I should be back to normal, yet even daily things are hard to do. I type this with tears in my eyes because even admitting this to myself is hard, let alone sharing it with you. I am doing my best every day and what my best is today is nowhere near what it was just a couple months ago. So that’s just a hard reality I am accepting.

Physically, I am seeing practitioners a few times a week that are helping me, and it’s been great to see the progress. And I have my daily rituals that I am doing at home. Daily I am feeling just a little bit better. Yet each day is so up and down. Just a week ago I couldn’t walk more than 30 minutes without needing to take breaks in between before my head was dizzy and I felt fatigued. My brain is starting to feel better and clear, yet it gets tired really fast and I can’t focus the same as I had before. Because of the concussion I had I wasn’t able to work since the accident.

My financial reality has changed because many of my work projects had to be delayed. For all my medical bills, I have been paying out of pocket and putting it on my credit card. I’ve recently had to make some other life bills payments and i’ve gotten to the point that I am living off my credit card right now- for basically everything- food, transport, any daily things and all my other bills- which has put a huge burden on me being in debt because of this accident. One of my credit cards is maxed out and in debt.

After speaking to my attorney and insurance, we don’t know when exactly I will get paid back for the medical expenses, yet I was told that I would.

Another thing that's really hanging over my head is that I was driving my parents car when I was in the accident (which was a blessing in disguise because my car would have gotten me so smashed, I don’t know if I would be here right now) And of course my parents only care about me being okay and that I am healing, yet the insurance didn’t give them the full amount the car was worth that they paid for it, and so I think about the $2,000 I want to be sure to gift them soon once I can generate income from working and pay off all this credit card that’s racked up from medical bills/etc.

A big reminder that reminding myself that I did not do this to myself, and there was nothing I could have done to stop this from happening. So that has helped put into perspective that I was not responsible for all of this, yet I am responsible for what I do from here.

So all to say, it’s been hard to focus on healing, when I want to jump back to working how I was before in order to generate income, yet I know that is prolonging the healing. And as someone who preaches about loving yourself well, so you can love others, this is extremely hard for me in this situation. Yet this is where I am growing in asking for help so I don’t prolong my own healing.

I want to ask any of you who really know me, who believe in me, and who want to support financially in this time. I know many have been helping emotionally, mentally and spiritually and I thank you dearly from the bottom of my heart, it’s helped so much. Now, I have a physical ask.

A great thing is I am always thinking how this can be a WIN for everyone. So if you donate here, your donation is also tax deductible. So that could be a blessing for you too. You could even donate anonymously as well or become a recurring donor. I am only sending this to close people to me, yet if you feel called to send it to someone you know that also loves and supports me and would want to also financially donate, please do. Just not sharing any of this publicly as it’s very raw.

If you made it this far, thank you. I am still in tears as I type this because I feel extremely sticky, and at the same time I know that we can’t do life alone, and I also do desire to heal, and not have all this hanging over my head and body and keeping this healing prolonged because of this. I will rise above it, and I am also in need of help right now. I trust the process and I trust God, so if you feel led to financially give, just know I thank you from the bottom of my heart more than you know. I know this is temporary and will be stronger on the other side.

I love you and know I am rooting for you.

Jess